This is silly, for me to feel so out of sorts. I should be happy. I'm lucky to have supportive friends (far better at it than I), a loving family, more than enough food and shelter,etc. Its just fear. I'm afraid I'm not doing this school thing right and I feel like I'm not doing the wife thing right and I'm scared that I won't be doing the work thing right either.

But these are normal fears that everyone has. I just can't let them overcome my day-to-day operations.

I think, tonight, instead of going to the gym, I will go to the library or the coffee house and work on my assignments for school. I'll think about what's going on and how I can make it better. Hopefully, I will have more information by then. They tend to drag their feet at work when it comes to making decisions.

Must go disenfect now. :)